I went swimming with a good friend yesterday, Annie Law - http://annieloulaw.blogspot.com/ We were talking about anything and everything and we got on to the subject of being/feeling alone and the pain and loneliness that it can create - we both agreed how crucial it is to try and conquer this fear, but is that ever possible? We explored how listening to music is sometimes the scariest thing ever when you do feel sad or alone; the emotions it can arise are often impossible to face.
It sounds cliche but music is the most powerful drug known to man - so powerful it has made the majority of the musicians in the past want it so bad, loose their minds, take drugs... and die. Therefore loose all the passion and roots of what music actually is... it is sad. And obviously that is an exaggeration but i guess also it is a metaphor for love and sanity - and the pain and extent people will go through to find it. Should you search for it? Or will it come naturally?
My next hurdle is Control... to what limit can you have the strength to control your own emotions and remain healthy? When is it the right time to listen to music/your heart and are you a coward if you are afraid to?
Possibly having the strength to be completely alone with no music, no outside interference is almost more courageous, you are relying on your own strength of mind to settle yourself OR are you just afraid to face those fears and memories that music can create.
Music is a pothole of memories. It can make you feel amazing, on top of the world and it can make you feel pathetic, small and lonely. It's all just in the essence of your timing and the tone.
Annie introduced me to The Cribs properly as we were driving around in the sun yesterday... something new and exciting for my ears. At that time it made me feel on top of the world and therefore now will create a great memory.
time and music....
ReplyDeletetwo very crazy things you have pondered over these last couple of days. I've never thought of music in this way... it's so true.. it's a very clever thing to begin listening to something new for now. create new memories. perhaps time is the only thing that will conquer all.. you should try to look forward instead of behind and think about all the new possibilities which have arose because of what's happened. it's easily said than done (i definitely havent done it - with males that is) but at least you can face the pain De, you are a strong person so all you need is that patience part. hard times on a small little island... but you know you've got me at hand xxxx
brave post little bee, well done xxx
p.s. love the new design going on here!
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